i don’t go to the parties i’m invited to because everyone just ends up drinking and doing stupid shit and i’m not trying to say i’m above that but i’m don’t find the need to drink to have fun because i can have fun without drinking.
I also dont really see the point in all that stuff. I’ve had alcohol before (with parental consent), I’ve been around weed before (my mom was there), and really I don’t see the point. I’m personally against smoking because it’s bad for you in the long run anyway, and drinking, I just don’t really have a taste for it. Maybe when I’m older I might on special occasions (like weddings, formal dinners, etc.) then maybe I’ll have one small glass of something.
I have fun by doing stuff I think is fun. I always try to make every time a good time :) .
When I was a child, I used to always be around the guys. I’d ride ATVs, play video games, eat lots of junk food, and be extremely stupid in my decision making. Making me a true tom-boy (clothes included). It was lots of fun, until I wanted boys to start seeing me as something more than a friend because that’s how I felt about them. I’m still the same person, that very same tom-boy building forts in the forest, almost flipping over an ATV, but I think I’ve found that balance.
Obviously not really one childhood memory, but I feel that it all falls into one.
I’m insecure about my looks and the relationships I have with people. For the longest time I felt ugly in sorts of ways that I couldn’t explain. I don’t have that as much now, but it still affects me at times because I can have a low self esteem believe it or not. I also hold my friends very closely and dearly to me, which makes me insecure about losing them, especially one very important and special person in my life. I guess, in general, I’m insecure about growing up and how my life will change because I have good chances of keeping the parts of my life that I want (like my relationship with my someone special) but still I’m insecure about not having control over the things I find very important in my personal life.