Something I just came up with. Inspired by “Blue Exorcist” and “Demon King Daimao”. Not really that good but I just wanted to share :) [pardon the shifts in tense; very first draft, ie very rough draft]
The pressure on my chest was unbearable. I couldn’t breathe and my mindset was all wrong. I was distracted. Without the right concentration, I can’t produce enough energy to get up and fight. I struggled to my feet; the sharp pain in my ribs increasing with every minute motion. I couldn’t fight it off. “Seeing red” isn’t enough of an expression for my rage. My inexplicable rage.
Coming to this new school, I came to find success in my academics. I found myself in special after school classes, with people I thought I could not relate to. In fact, I never have been able to relate to them. In the beginning of the year, I thought I was too normal. As the year went on, both the class and I progressed. We began to relate to each other more, as if I became more bizarre and they more normal. But our paths crossed, and kept moving on. As my condition became more extreme, they kept moving further and further away from me in fear. A fear that was extra-ordinary.
I had no idea I ever stood out. It was curious how no one wanted to associate with me except for a select few. Even then, that select few grew further away from me. Just as this school year, it was as if my past was repeating in the present, and going to persist on in the future. I had no control of it. No one can control what others think, least of all me. I can’t or at least haven’t been able to prove to others that I am nothing to fear. I thought I was like everybody else. Instead, that was furthest from the truth. Not even I knew.
I have had enough with others fearing me. I will not take my own life to please or comfort them. I have to take revenge on the source that instilled all this fear. I may have been cursed and endowed with all this supernatural power, but the stereotype and story that is tagged along, is not my own doing, and neither that of the previous owner of this power. It’s of another group, a group that lives in fear of the unknown and the inexplicable. What they had seen as chaos, was an attempt for a better world. Something peaceful and prosperous, all the same.
I concentrated the energy to my palm, facing toward the crisp blue sky. The wind blew as I concentrated the energy, heat being emitted from this sphere of energy, my weapon that is drawn from within my soul. As the light grew brighter, I know it was almost ready. Placing my other palm over the sphere, I place the spherical weapon by my hip. Pushing my hands closer together, I increase the pressure and net power. Once the resistance is too strong, I thrust my hands forward.
The energy rushes away from my body. What seems like a 6 inch wide beam of concentrated light passes over the bodies of their victims. Once the target is met, the energy is released, faster than the explosion of an atomic bomb. The light is blinding….
As of tmrw…. I am taking all my studying super serious. I spent all day after school, laying around, watching videos, playing games, snacking, subconsciously napping as well… Tmrw, I am prepping for my math exams on Thursday and Friday.
It’s the final stretch, and I have to step my effort up for these last few weeks.
He’s all confident, knows what he wants to do in life, brave, and grown-up. And me… I’m nervous, scared, uncertain, and by comparison, not nearly as grown-up. I am still hopeful for the future nonetheless. Fingers crossed. xx
Maybe these first six months of college will help me, and then maybe in turn, bring us together again eventually once you’ve settled in. Regardless, we are always going to be best friends in the least.
I feel like some people think I’m weird because I hang out mostly with guys. As a girl, yes I still do have my friends that are girls that I can get all oogley over something about, but most of the time, I just hang out with my guy friends. We talk about all kinds of things (personal and random), play video games, watch movies, break a rule here or there upon rare occassion (keeps me relaxed actually and rather care-free), just be relaxed. That may be a benefit for me in the future. I’m gonna save up money so I can get a small TV and maybe a game system so I can play some games when I have free time to myself. :) Hopefully I’ll make some awesome friends in college, just like the ones I have now, so I can keep adding on to my group of people that I trust :) . I will definitely keep in touch with all my past close friends. My boyfriend is going to Boston, but we may just end up being the closest of best friends, but that’s still something, and I will definitely cherish it :) . Can’t wait to have him back more involved in my life come January 2013. So I can have past and present come together :) . Excited to make even more memories with friends old and new. Still hopeful about what will happen to us, there is still a good chance (especially if it’s anything like a little over a year ago/last time).
Still very hopeful and he’s open-minded. Fingers crossed ;) xx
It hurts to become wise. My wisdom teeth are coming in straight, but it hurts how it tears through my gums and the tissue in my mouth is not used to it. Have barely been talking so far today because of the soreness and pain. Forgot to take my 2 advil/pain killers this morning. ugh … 9.9 gonna be a long day